2nd February 2015

Today is a Tuesday and I should be at the gym to do my gym session and pilates. However, I am not at the gym I am sat at home.  I sort of decided last night that I would not be going. My motivation is on the floor and my mood is very, very low. My husband is away dealing with his dads funeral and helping clear out his flat etc. I am not dealing very well with the fact that I will not be able to go to his dads funeral to pay my respects or offer support to my husband.  My children are not not dealing with it very well either.

This morning I woke up to snow. I really do not do snow or ice as I have a balance problem and I find it hard to walk in it so even had I not been feeling this way I would not have ventured out in it anyway. I thought that I might do the Lesliie Sansone walk at home exercise on You Tube but it has not happened yet today and I doubt it will if I am being honest with myself. Not even being part of a challenge using my Fitbit has motivated me.

I think that this entry is a very important one, it needed to be written.  For you the reader, it is important that you read the downs as well as the ups.  This is definitely one of my lowest points in my whole journey of losing weight.  This is what has happened before, something will happen in my life and the diet and exercise just goes out of the window.

Let's see what tomorrow brings....