12th February 2015

I am in a quandry. As I posted in my latest post in the gym section, I found this week that the pins and needles that I have been getting in my right arm is caused by an injury most likely in my shoulder. But could be in my neck.  This means that I will not be able to go to the gym for a little while. This is not very good news because I think that it was only the exercise that has been keeping my weight in check.  I have not been doing very well foodwise.  It sort of feels like this is the beginning of the end as far as losing weight is concerned. I have no idea how to get myself back on track or whether I can.  I have thought about ringing my Health Adviser but I don't know if there is really anything she can say or do to help....

Tuesday 9th February 2015

Today should have been a gym day today. I could not go because I had an appointment with the Dental Hygienist. For about one month now I have been getting pins and needles in my right arm.  I have been sort of ignoring it because I hate going the doctors and it seems a silly thing to go to the doctors about, especially when it comes and goes. Whilst I was at the Dental Hygienist she got me to hold the the little vacuum thing that they put in your mouth. Whilst I was holding it, I once again started to get pins and needles in my arm. I knew that I could not ignore it for much longer.  I looked it up in a book that I have at home and it said it was either a stroke or multiple sclerosis. I decided that it might be best to just get seen by a doctor.  On my way to the doctors to make an appointment I thought I might nip into the chemist first and see whether they had any ideas what it could be. The chemist told me that it is caused by either a neck or shoulder injury. This made a lot of sense to me because I injured my shoulder not long ago. She said that there was not really much point going to see a doctor because they won't be able to do anything. I need either a Physiotherapist or a Chiropractic. I don't see the point in going to the gym because I don't do much exercise there which does not involve arm work. I would worry about making it worse than it already is.

2nd February 2015

Today is a Tuesday and I should be at the gym to do my gym session and pilates. However, I am not at the gym I am sat at home.  I sort of decided last night that I would not be going. My motivation is on the floor and my mood is very, very low. My husband is away dealing with his dads funeral and helping clear out his flat etc. I am not dealing very well with the fact that I will not be able to go to his dads funeral to pay my respects or offer support to my husband.  My children are not not dealing with it very well either.

This morning I woke up to snow. I really do not do snow or ice as I have a balance problem and I find it hard to walk in it so even had I not been feeling this way I would not have ventured out in it anyway. I thought that I might do the Lesliie Sansone walk at home exercise on You Tube but it has not happened yet today and I doubt it will if I am being honest with myself. Not even being part of a challenge using my Fitbit has motivated me.

I think that this entry is a very important one, it needed to be written.  For you the reader, it is important that you read the downs as well as the ups.  This is definitely one of my lowest points in my whole journey of losing weight.  This is what has happened before, something will happen in my life and the diet and exercise just goes out of the window.

Let's see what tomorrow brings....